A Sad Goodbye

So, yesterday i had to say a goodbye to a friend of mine who is moving away. Saying goodbye is always hard for me so i wrote a story for her to tell her how much i would miss her, and how important she is to our group of friends. It's basically just a sad little story about goodbyes that i wrote because i didn't know what else i could do to say, goodbye.

Author’s Note: I know not a lot of people read these but I really hope you will, at least this once. This story, it’s important to me because I am writing for a friend who is leaving me. She is strong and a role model to me and all of our friends. So, Caillin, if you read this. I hope you know that you mean the world to us all!

From Your Besties! J

Saying Our Goodbyes

No one ever wants to say a goodbye to a friend. But at times we have to. We all say goodbye a different way, and we all prepare for it a different way. Some of us block that person out so we don’t have to feel the pain. Others don’t want to leave their side because they think if they spend the time they have with them they won’t miss or regret them in a painful way.

It doesn’t matter though, we all feel that pain when we lose a friend. It hurts when they move away, because you can still contact them, but you fall apart. And eventually, you spend your nights wondering if they’re happy without you around.  Sometimes, you wonder whether it would hurt less if they had died, but then you hate yourself for thinking that. Because you know deep in your heart, that no matter what happens when you lose a friend, it’s going to stay with you forever.

Eventually, the time will come to say goodbye. You give them contact information, phone numbers and email addresses. And then you give them something to remember you by, a present.

For some though its harder to do. The friends all write letters to the one who is leaving them, to tell them how much they mean to them. Why they will miss them, and what great memories you have with them. And for at least one in that group, they won’t know what to write, or how to put down how they will miss them. Generally, it's the person who always has the answer, the one who fixes the problems and gives out the advice. They can help the others write their letters to the one whose leaving, but they still can’t write their own.

It’s like a pointless battle to them, so they try to find another way to tell the person how much you will miss them. Some write songs, put it behind a photo or painting. Some even buy the person presents to try and hide the fact that they don’t know what to say.  But it’s all so cliché.

So you do the only thing you know how to. You start to fall apart and break down. Blocking out life because you didn’t say goodbye like you should have.

When you finally work out what to write, its almost too late to give the letter to them because you have left it for so long.

Everything the group of friends want to give the departing one is kept in a small shoebox, painted black with messages written in silver on it. You don’t let the friend see it until it's the last goodbye, and you all cry and weep over the fact she is actually leaving.  Her parents have to come and forcefully pull her away from the massive group hug your having, because none of you want to let go of her.

You know your going to see each other again some day, but it doesn’t ease the sting you feel each time someone brings her up.

You wonder what your friend thought of your letters. The ones in the shoebox.  But later in the night, you get a phone call, from your friend. She’s crying and telling you how much your letter meant. The following day you also get an email, which tells you, again how much it means to her.  So you allow yourself to smile and continue on as you would with her there. You don’t feel any pain when people say her name or bring up a memory with her. Because she’s still around, just not here. You can still hear her voice if you call her, and you can even Skype them from time to time, so you talk to each other face to face. 

So for all the people who have to say goodbye to a friend because they’re leaving, remember, it’s never too late to tell them how you feel about them. A letter or email. Phone calls or video chats. You can always find them on the other side.

You’ll miss them, that's for sure. But you won’t ever regret meeting them. Because how can you regret meeting someone who has made so many joyful memories with you.

I will miss you sooooooooo much Caillin, don't forget us! And please, don't cry (she cried the first time she read this). Be happy, cause you know you'll see all us crazies again!  

Anyway, for the rest of you, I'll see you all again sometime next week with a next chapter of Hero's Core and Fallout 16.